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16:41 - “To those who leave their homes in the cause of Allah, after suffering oppression, We will assuredly give a goodly home in this world: but truly the reward of the Hereafter will be greater. If they only knew!”

Friday, August 7, 2009

Eyes and Voices / 3:58 PM

There are a lot of things going on in my mind. Again. This is getting really annoying. I think I'm getting annoyed at my own mood swings. I can never fathom why I ever liked being this way but I can't deny that I still like it this way. I know it's confusing but then again, it's between me and Allah s.w.t. I think I'm missing someone really badly but who exactly I don't know. Trust me, I don't. I'm getting a headache (and a heart ache too).

One thing that popped up in my head yesterday while I was reading the biography of Prophet Muhammad s.a.w. was my significance. Or rather the wonder of what my significance is. There are so many names in the book. For example, there's a Yusuf Dhu Nawas who was kinda like Hitler. He ordered for the christians to be thrown into a large hole of fire. The irony is that we also have Nabi Yusuf who was one of the prophets of Islam. Don't worry, they're totally different people. If I'm not wrong, Yusuf Dhu Nawas was not really practicing the Islam we practice now. Okay, what I'm wondering is: what about me? I mean there has to be like tons of 'Muhammad Hazwan's in history. There's bound to be bad ones and good ones too. So what about me? What am I gonna do that people (at least people who know me) would remember about when I die? Just something I like to ponder about. I mean I have 2 main paths to choose and I only have one lifetime to choose it.

Darn. That's like only one of the things bothering me. This sucks. Ouh and the significance of the picture above is... well I don't know. I just felt like searching for a girl in burqa. All I know is, I like her eyes. I wonder if there's supposed to be meaning behind every single thing. Hmm...