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16:41 - “To those who leave their homes in the cause of Allah, after suffering oppression, We will assuredly give a goodly home in this world: but truly the reward of the Hereafter will be greater. If they only knew!”

Friday, December 5, 2008

In God's Hands / 3:40 PM

I'm leaving everything in god's hands right now. I can cry as much as I want but it wont do any good. Maybe I'm just thinking too much off things or being too emotional but you have to admit, I have changed and you have changed. It's like we're different people now. We don't talk anymore, we don't laugh anymore, we're just in each other's face. I'm not in a bad mood, really I'm not. I just feel so depressed when I think of how far apart we have become. I guess we aren't special after all. Maybe it's because you think I don't need you anymore and maybe it's because I think you don't need me anymore, but the bottom line is, it's different now. Maybe you have better friends now and I'm just... another friend. I know you might say that you still need me or care for me but seriously, everytime we're on the same page, we seem to talk in our own parables. It's just not like it used to be. Maybe Nisha's right, we just need some time on our own and let nature take it's course. I can't let my feelings fluctuate like this, I don't think I'll survive.

"Pergi, pergi, pergi, ku tak ingin kau panggil lagi, lagi, lagi. Apa mungkin kini kau hanya cermin ilusi. Ingin ku perlumu sepenuh rasa hati. Marah, marah, marah, kau selalu lukakan pilu, pilu, pilu. Tak mengapa kerana masih aku rindu, kau bagai lilin nyala difikiran aku." - Jelita, The Sallys