Alhamdulillah / 9:53 PM

Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Syukur Ya Allah.

I should say those words more. I was so upset about not getting through the 2nd auditions that I wasn't even kusyuk during my Friday prayers. After the whole day of skipping class so that I can meet Nisha and talk to her about it, I stumbled upon a nasyid in my handphone; Bismillah.

a quote: "mulakan dengan bismillah, sudahkan dengan alhamdulillah"

Then I realised I didn't do just that. And now I really am glad and thankful to god. 'He' wrote it down in the book of destiny that I would fall sick and wont get through and although I haven't arrived at the reason just yet, I am sure theres a good reason for it. Maybe it serves as a reminder. Who knows?

Anyway, I really am thankful because he gave me classmates that are not the type to say: "haha! in your face hazwan!". They are good people. And I should be happy the 3 of them got through. Furthermore, I should be thankful that I made through the first auditions for the solo contestants because that means that I CAN sing. I FINALLY have confirmation that I CAN sing. And at this point, I remember yet another quote: "seni itu bukan dianugerahkan kepada sesiape sahaje". It was a quote from the show: Danielle (I know this is quite corny).

Thus I want to end with again thanking god for giving me the gift to be able to sing and write songs. For not giving me any illnesses that might stop me from showcasing the gift he gave me. For not making me look like an animal of some sort and be shuned by society.

Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah. Thank you for helping me realise that I am more fortunate than I perceive myself to be and thank you for giving me such supportive friends. =))