Aku- a poem by Irwan Azly [mood: sad and confused] / 4:32 PM

I've been reading Irwan Azly's blog at myspace..then I found this poem..At first I thought it was an intro of him or sumthing but then as I read this poem it made me feel as if I wanna know more..I wanna know him not his career...I hope god gives me that oppurtunity someday...read the poem and tell me what you think..

Aku

Inilah aku
Aku yang kau tahu
tetapi..
Aku bukan Aku
tanpa pengalaman yang aku tempuh

Dari kecil aku bertanya,
Siapalah aku?
tanpa ibu dan ayah hidup bersama
Siapalah aku?
Tanpa kasih sayang yang sempurna
Siapalah aku?

Ibu marah ku sebut nama ayah
Kerana ayah ibu merana
Ayah marah ku rindukan ibu
Kerana hanya nama ibu yang ku tahu
bukan namanya..

Aku kehilangan, aku keseorangan
Aku lihat rakan2 seperjuangan
Rosak akhlak, hancur masa depan
Aku hampir tewas dengan keadaan
Salah aku? salah mereka? Salah siapa?

Tiada yang boleh menjawab
Selain aku
Tiada yang boleh memastikan
Selain aku

Dan kini,
Ini lah aku
Aku yang kau tahu...

It said on his blog he wrote that in a lazy mood or he posted that in a lazy mood..so im wondering: does he usually feel this sad?does he always have to express his pain in such poems?or are poems, such as this one, just a poem?

Im feeling soo morbid because I just realised that even though he is my biggest idol and role model on earth, I am not able to get to know him more then that and share our problems together so that I can be there for him just like I've always been with my own friends.

Oh god!! I hope you will allow our paths(Irwan Azly's and mine) to cross as friends one day. I only hope you would allow me to affect his life as much as he affected mine.